Today is no different. Today I wonder as I do at the conclusion of any study: did I learn anything? Am I different? Did I cooperate with the Spirit of God as He works in me the process of sanctification? Did I resist His conviction? Did our time together count for eternity? Was I an encouragement to my fellow Bible students? Did I make the best use of our time? Was I faithful to handle the Word of God correctly? Did I waste the precious privilege granted to those who presume to sit in the teacher's chair?
I don't know. Only eternity and faithful conviction of the Spirit can tell. I will say that I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it has been, as it always has been, my earnest desire to know Christ through the study of God's Word and to come alongside my sisters and friends who join me in the pursuit. The One who calls us is faithful; as we seek Him with our whole heart, we will find Him! Amazing grace!
In her book Holiness, Nancy Leigh Demoss concludes with the following questions. I found them both convicting and sobering...
Where are the men and women who love God supremely and who fear nothing and no one but God? Where are the saints who live like saints--whose lives are above reproach in every matter--in their homes, their work, their speech, their habits, their attitudes, their finances, and their relationships?
Where are the believers whose eyes are filled with tears, whose hearts ache when they see an unholy church partying and entertaining herself to death, and whose knees are sore from pleading with God to grant the gift of repentance?
Where are the Christian leaders with the compassion and courage to call the church to be clean before God? Where are the moms and dads and young people who are willing to deal thoroughly and decisively with everything that is unholy in their hearts and their homes?
The church has been waiting for the world to get right with God. When will we realize that the world is waiting for the church to get right with God?
How I look forward to that day when you and I, along with all the other saints from all ages, walk together down that aisle toward our Beloved Bridegroom. I want to face Him with joy--radiant, unashamed, 'dressed in His righteousness alone, faultless to stand before the throne.'
Are you ready for the Wedding? If not, what would have to do to get ready? Is there a sin you need to confess and forsake? Is there a habit you need to give up--or cultivate? Is there a relationship you need to break off--or reconcile? Are there items in your possession you need to get rid of? Are there debts you need to pay? Are there people whose forgiveness you need to seek? Is there restitution you need to make?
Whatever it is, for Jesus' sake, for the world's sake, for His body's sake, for your family's sake, for your sake--do it. By His grace and the power of His Holy Spirit--do it.
Here I am, Lord. For Your glory and Yours alone.